A girl with many dreams as I am, I find myself going through one level of failure and another yet I find myself courageous enough to fight the odds against me. Most often, my battles haven't been successful but I still hang in there straining to see the light at the end of the dreary tunnel. I have been successful too, no doubt, because my stories of success are too many and cannot even fill a 500-paged book.I know God has major plans for me, plans of good and not of evil and even a very bright future (Jeremiah 29:11). The Dilemma of a Ghost! An intriguing title but just like Ama Ata Aidoo sought to portray in her drama with this same title, I bring my thoughts to light. But there is something about life that I find disturbing. I understand there is imbalance but when you find yourself at the disadvantaged side of the scale, you find out that life is unfair. I have been pensive for a long time now. Thinking, analysing and breaking down all the stories I have in mind. The deadly disease Ebola is an example. Won't it be quite unfair if a little girl somewhere contracts this disease through no fault of hers? Let's look at the sickle cell disease. If I was born with this disease, won't I be justified to say that life is unfair because if you look carefully, I haven't done anything to deserve it. Another example is the contraction of diseases through blood transfusion. What if the screening equipment was not properly working? Did I sign a death warrant by deciding that I needed blood because the doctors say my level of blood is wholly inadequate? These questions and scenarios are outnumbered but one thing remains too tall; life is unfair and it's always up to us to make use of the curveballs that are thrown at us.
So when you set off in life, there will be dilemmas because life is an unbalanced process . You will always be torn between two decisions, three and even four at a particular phase. I have always been torn between following what I deserve to have and what I want to have. PAUSE! Read that again. Have you got the difference now? Okay okay, sometimes what I deserve to have is what I want to have but that's sometimes. Not always.
This situation in itself is an unbalanced act. This is because most often I have focused all my attention on one thing, I neglect the other and this goes to bite me right in the face. Always in a dilemma.
Way back in school, I wanted to occupy a position in any one of 2 different clubs of which I was a part of . Unfortunately, I saw a bright chance at one, pursued it with all my heart but totally neglected the other. The result? I lost chances at both. It's sad but I have always believed in rising up after a fall. Life goes on..... but strange enough, I find myself in such situations. Here, my ghost is my thoughts and they always place me between a rock and hard place. I'm sure, beyond any reasonable doubt, that my situation is going to get better. Everything will turn out for my good.
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