Make me

I stretch it out
Wider
I reach out
Wider
The signs all tell me one thing
But I refuse to hear the song
That keeps my heart from beating

Pull me out
Deeper
Hold my thoughts
Deeper
Within all things, all things dwell
I see things
Much deeper
Perchance, clearer

All I see is a dead end
Yet like a flickering lamp
I reach out to save the last flame
In order to lift the wave
Of futility
That mars my well-sorted thoughts
And shatters my frame

Where are you?
I ask
Instinctively,  I know my answer
Yet like fire,
My thoughts ravage my cerebral cortex
As though a little hunger was immense starvation
Where are you?
I search
Deliberately,  I hide my answer
But like all things that are hidden
They shall be exposed stark naked
My answer is exposed
'No where'

All along I have pursued an invisible shadow
That lived closer to the meadow
Of the heart that strangles my chest
And impinges on my crest
My crest of focus
I'm left like a locus
Without something to hold on to like a status
And this is bogus

The diverse potions I got
Went around in swirling motions
Nothing was left to scavenge
It's hurtful
That all these amounted to nothing
My attention has been one-sided
I never decided
To end up that way
No matter how much you say
Just don't go
There is much more for me to play
My game of chance hasn't ended
I have one lifetime
To make my life worth the