The Noncommittal Attitude

   I met a personality  recently. She lives in my mind. I realised I have being talking to her for a long while now. Maybe that's why I can be absent-minded sometimes.  She drew my attention  to alot of things within this brief period  of our friendship . She is not a  misanthrope, she means business.  She specialises in making me aware of the pros and cons of certain things. 

 Today, we had a lengthy time together, I understood her more. One thing that she kept hammering was how A NONCOMMITTAL ATTITUDE IS THE BEST OPTION in some cases in life. I was arguing with her, I nearly shut her out completely. She asked if I could quantify my emotions. And I rebuffed,'out the wazoo'. I was trying to push her out as much as I needed my freedom. I disagreed with her on many things but what we discussed  about a noncommittal way of living resonated in my mind. Lately, the doors have being opening but they open barely halfway and as much as I would like to push through, I remain reluctant. But this would be an issue for discussion  later. 

 I figured that all the fun moments I have had had ended and all I had were but memories that I relive each day. I can only blame certain  circumstances. I'm justified to do that. All the excuses raised are only glib ones and I believe that life would be better off if everything  remained as it were-undisturbed. I'm held back from screaming,'my worst fears have consumed me.' Because based on my critical analysis  of my situation,  I believe  I am better of. My virtual personality remarked that we have to be noncommital  sometimes because the key to being on a safe spot is not being sooo  absorbed  in whatever you aren't sure of. This is quite true. If you are partly committed  to something, if peradventure  that thing fails, you won't  feel the impact of the fall as colossally  as you would, if you pumped in all your emotions and energy.

 I agree. Final!