love is patient, love is kind.....

Eli;
I have a secret to share with you guys.
It’s about someone I met.
I’ve tried my best to keep this relationship private
But it gets more difficult by the day.
I simply can’t hold it in any longer.

I remember when we first met.
I was lost like a sardine bobbed out of the sea
Confused, distressed, Irritable.
Then she came out her way to hug me,
Odd! right? That was my thought
But, the hug was so warm and comforting that I really didn’t care;
She was there when I needed someone to care…

I remember the first time I used the L-O-V-E word.
It was dark but we could see into each other’s eyes,
Wrapped in each other’s arms that are heart rate and respiratory rates synced;
It was like an eclipse…
It began to boil up in me;
My eyes watered, reddened & looked like a reflective surface
The back of my throat swelled up like a puff fish in distress
Then the words I-LOVE-YOU rolled out of my mouth.

And I said I wanted to hold/know her so tight/bad 
I could feel/tell when her sweat pores opened up.
To do any and every thing she so desired, just had to say the WORD.
To dwell in her presence each day (Don moen-want to be where u are, dwelling daily in ur presence)
To follow her wherever she went
To spend the rest of my life with her.

Yes, the psychiatrists will say I’ve got SEPARATION ANXIETY DISORDER
And may add one disorder or another
Rightly so, because I simply can’t go by the world’s ORDER of love,
It’s WOEFULLY INADEQUATE!!!
It is said that when a couple live together for a while, they begin to look alike
That’s all I wanted, to see her when I stood in front of a mirror.. to look like her

I remember when I first told someone about her
Had mixed feelings: 
I know I’d promised to do anything to make her smile
And she told me to GO out and tell the world about our love
So they may partake
But I was scared like…
Totally freaked out
But she said I should set my eyes on her and not the world. [Col 3:2]
So anytime I was weak, angered or hurt by you or you,
I just had to look to her 
And She would strengthen me and make me know that I can do all things [Phil 4:13]
Her love made me grow
And I'm more certain that
Love is patient, love is kind....



Ella,


I met this guy the other day
He tried his best to catch my attention but I decided to look the other way
But day after wretched day, I struggled through letting my thoughts not dwell on him
Oh God may this canker worm not eat through my heart
I'm afraid I couldn't face the fact -the fact that the more I stole glances at him, the more my heart welled up with a strong and pungent surge of emotion
My heart was in motion 
I must have drank the love potion 

My knowledge about love was sparse 
I couldn't qualify my feelings 
I didn't want to live in a farce 
I wanted to hide my dealings 
With him, I felt my world would never stop revolving 
But dizzy, i can only scream Jesus take the wheel 
What is this that I feel 
Buried deep down in my thoughts I treasured every second with my love 
Oh wait !
Am I too quick to call him that?
I believe I'm soaring so quickly on the wings of a dove 
I am crazily and  helplessly in love 

Our first hug was electrifying
My nerves fired sparks of heated electric  currents all over
I may have jumped the broom too quickly
I have sent the signal so early.
I made a mental note of that.

He told me he loved me
Wrapped around his arms, I believed every word even before they were uttered 
I could hear his heart beat 
And to me, every lub-dub 
Sounded like a knock beckoning me to open my heart to love 
He was my all 
And I knew that soon he'd be my fall 
I apologise if I am being a prophet OF DOOM 
but he banged into my heart with a boom 
And suddenly my world was in chaos 
I needed to restore order
Before our lives plunged into disorder 
Silently, we both knew we could compromise no matter what
I must leave......*sobs*

I tried to eradicate PRIVACY 
And kill HYPOCRISY 
If he loved me
He must let the world know 
I needed time to grow more in God as much as he needed to 
So despite fear of losing him 
I must go away.....

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